Sunday, September 9, 2012

Taking the Cape Off.

I was going to blog about how great I felt yesterday. The prednisone is giving me much needed energy since this stupid disease drains every once out of you. I cleaned my house top to bottom and still had energy to spare. That all left this morning though. I didnt take any pain meds yesterday because I didnt feel I needed them. This morning, however, Im back in the pain I was in 3 days ago. My stomach is swollen and I feel like shit. I hate taking the pain meds because they make me loopy but if I dont I will spend my day curled up on the couch in a ball trying to will it away. Even on 40 mg of pred I am still running to the bathroom 10+ times a day. Every other time Ive flared, 20 mg worked great and I didnt "run to the can" at all.

Im moving back to Canada soon because the hubs is leaving for a deployment and I cant deal with this alone. My biggest fear is being admitted to the hospital and having no one to take care of our girls. I always rolled my eyes at the military spouses that moved back home for a deployment because it's what you married into and here I am doing the same thing. I feel like such a hypocrite. I know the circumstances are different but I also feel like I should be able to do this on my own. I want to do this on my own! My best friend says I cant be super-woman all the time and that I need to take the cape off every once in a while, I finally am=)


  1. Way different circumstance for you going home lady! I swear our parallel lives are starting to really weird me out. I love that you are writing everyday. I hope you are taking pics everyday too!

  2. I am glad you are moving home, I would be scared for you while Jason is deployed! Take care of yourself and your girls the best way you can in your circumstances, and you are!

  3. While rolling your eyes about those other military wives that moved home, you probably didn't realize the reasons they had. They, like you and Melissa, may have had medical issues that many of their friends either knew nothing about or didn't understand the severity of them. Instead of feeling like a hypocrite, you have a new understanding of others reasons for leaving. :) You and the girls are going to love being around family!