Taking the Cape Off.

I was going to blog about how great I felt yesterday. The prednisone is giving me much needed energy since this stupid disease drains every once out of you. I cleaned my house top to bottom and still had energy to spare. That all left this morning though. I didnt take any pain meds yesterday because I didnt feel I needed them. This morning, however, Im back in the pain I was in 3 days ago. My stomach is swollen and I feel like shit. I hate taking the pain meds because they make me loopy but if I dont I will spend my day curled up on the couch in a ball trying to will it away. Even on 40 mg of pred I am still running to the bathroom 10+ times a day. Every other time Ive flared, 20 mg worked great and I didnt "run to the can" at all.

Im moving back to Canada soon because the hubs is leaving for a deployment and I cant deal with this alone. My biggest fear is being admitted to the hospital and having no one to take care of our girls. I always rolled my eyes at the military spouses that moved back home for a deployment because it's what you married into and here I am doing the same thing. I feel like such a hypocrite. I know the circumstances are different but I also feel like I should be able to do this on my own. I want to do this on my own! My best friend says I cant be super-woman all the time and that I need to take the cape off every once in a while, I finally am=)